Reflections from Growing Through Loss Participants

Cutting

By Christina (14 years old)

You’re so surreal, artificial and unreal

You were my obsession, I your possession.

When I first begun it was “Just another one.”

Now I wear your scars---deep physical permanent mars.

How was I ever so blind, how did I ever fall so behind?

You were always there without a care

Just me and you, our own lil crew.

When problems arose my door flew closed.

While I sought you out there was no doubt

You’d always care, always be there.

To take away my pain, yet leave me with so much to gain.

You won your game, days full of shame.

Nights full of tears after all of these years.

You’ve finally won what I begun.

It was pain I greeted, now I lie defeated.

You took my mind, body, and soul. I’m yours to hold.

This is your cost. I’ve finally lost.

Goodbye

By Audrey (16 years old)

You left me alone in a world so cold

Not knowing what to do.

Every time I turned around a new problem arose

When the only thing I needed was love from you.

You left me with pain, heartache and suffering.

And I need to let go and move on.

All I wanted was for someone to love me for me.

And I thought you would be the one.

It’s ok for all you’ve done.

I need to start over, make it anew,

No matter what happens, I want you to know,

You are my father and I will always love you.

Can You?

By Tony (17 years old)

Can you feel my pain that’s in my innermost self?  My fear and rage that took me from hell! He can do all his drugs, but he must stay away from me.  Let me live my life and be drug free.  I may be lonely but won’t be forever, me and my family  will be together.